nothing else Daddy

I am truly disgusted at how much I choose shit over God. I'm sorry to any who are reading this and don't like shit, but I think that God prefers honesty over niceness and properness. Anyway... I just can't seem to be faced with a choice, and choose Him over lustful temptation. I want to throw up when I think about how much I spit on Him and then turn away. And the things that I turn away for so easily are not even satisfying. I am begging, Daddy, renew my mind. RENEW MY MIND!! Nothing else but You!! Jesus!! Jesus!! Jesus!! NOTHING ELSE BUT YOU!!!! I don't want money or fame or popularity or sex or anything!! only You.