the rains over sculpture falls

Today the hopkins, myself, my brothers, and moses went on an excursion into the greenbelt, while torrents of rain fell like little crystals of life and filled the creek and all the small rills and tributaries. lightning struck in the distance and thunder rolled and sometimes snapped or cracked through the sky! I felt so alive! We got to sculpture falls and I stood there and saw all the legions of trees boughs raised to the heavens recieving the rain with gratefulness, and i was amazed and humbled and in awe. I joined them. I'm so glad that God is who He is and that He gave us this beatiful place to stay while He works in us and grows us. It's overwhelming. Halelujah You are my shalom! Halellujah You are home! halellujah You are my heart water! Halellujah You are Father!! Thank You Abba.

post journey ponderings

This morning i picked the last of those huge dry clumpy boogers that you get when your in the mountains, the ones that are like the sticky rice on sushi. It's kind of sad. I miss the mountains, I miss the aspens shimmering and quaking, the carpet of forest across the valley, the great winding Animas, the oh so delicious taste of beef jerky eaten in the crisp mountain air. He answered my prayer, i asked Him on the way up that I would see a bear, and on our hike I saw the biggest black bear I've ever seen! And no, that wasn't the only black bear I've seen. He was the size of a grizzly, and extraordinarily fast!! God's just shockingly thoughtful and sweet. Although i miss Colorado, it was so wonderful to see all my friends. I don't deserve them. God is in them. Tonight after stone we got together and sang and ate waffles smothered in nutella and prayed for my dear brother jacob. He is a man that loves God fiercely, and loves Him fiercely enough that it is tattooed all over his life. You can't miss it. He is sopping with Jesus. I want to be like that. God I want to love You so much that my life is bizzare compared to the world. I don't want to talk about You, I want to talk TO You! Amazes is not a good enough word to capture the response I have to Your tenderness. I want to just sing new songs to You forever right now! My mind does not understand why You are so gracious, so loving, so kookily faithful and kind. It makes no sense. But it's the most wonderful thing! It's our life story! "The earth was shaking in the dark, all creation felt the Father's broken heart. Tears were filling heaven's eyes the day that True Love died, the day that True Love died! When blood and water hit the ground walls we couldn't move came crashing down! We were free and made alive the day that True Love died! The day that True Love died!!"

pre-adventure thoughts

Leaving tomorrow for colorado!! Ah:) I'm really excited. I want to come back changed. I want God to speak and move and mold and sing to me. I think it will be beautiful and scary and amazing and humbling. As my sister tarah has said, "God is not safe, but He is good, amen?". Amen. I'm glad He's not safe. It scares the crap out of me sometimes, but it beckons me ya know? Calls me deeper. I wanna dive in! I want to be trembling in fear of Him, and then realize that He is my Daddy and that He fights for me. Maybe one day He will make my heart and mind huge enough to comprehend how amazing and crazy that is. I hope so. Maybe it just won't be 'til I get to heaven.
There's a poster in my room that I got when I was little from San Diego Zoo, it has a a grey wolf standing amongst a grove of aspen trees gazing right at the camera with big mago colored eyes. I will soon be amongst the sweet aspens as well! I can't wait to smell them and see them dance in the wind! To wake up and be surrounded by the towering majestic mountains, humming deep songs about Jesus and heaven. Maybe I'll see a wolf! or a bear!! We shall see! A grand adventure awaits! "I will arise and go to Jesus! He will embrace me in His arms! For in the arms of my dear Savior oh there are ten thousand charms!"

my first blog entry

This is kind of exciting. I'm excited about having a blog. I want this to be a place where God is talked about, but but mostly talked to. A place of conversation and pondering. Of laughter and remorse and frustration and delight all splatted together like a big life collage. hmm... Aslan is on the move.